I Will

Will I look back and long for an exercise companion, a little shopping buddy, a laundry pal?  That constant shadow wanting to be with me all the time?

Will I look back and wish my son would ask me to sleep with him a bit, listen for the call in the night of my child needing it's mother's comforting arms? 

If I can find contentment and Joy in today then I won't.

Will I be able to look with pride at my children's independence or wish that they would need me once again?

Will I be able to find Joy in my new role as a friend more then a Mother?

If I can find contentment and Joy in today then I Will. 

  

Journey toward Joy

Grumbling and complaining about the phase that we are in.  Wishing that time would move more swiftly, that our little ones would grow up into that independence and allow us a bit more freedom.  Our Joy is stolen in that wishful thinking and looking ahead.

Longing for the past, mourning the lose of our youth, the full house, constant need and purpose we felt from being a Mother.  

Our Joy is stolen in that looking back and wishing for what once was.  

God is in the future, He is in the past but He is Alive in the present.  He is our strength in times of weakness and lack of sleep, our guide in moments of conflict and wisdom needed.  The comforter and giver of new life.  He is using our present to mold us into who He wants us to be.  That is where Joy is found.

Philippians 4:11-12 (the book of Joy)

Not that I speak from want; for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need.